The other night I did something stupid. I started looking through all the photos in my phone. I was looking for pictures of a specific model horse but I started paying attention to all the photos. And thinking about the things I miss.
I definitely miss horse shows. I miss groups of friends casually getting together over performance entries to make them the best they can be.
I miss how casually we would take photos like this, without a second thought about social distancing.
I miss seeing groups of hobby friends.
And I miss when it was OK to get up close and take a selfie with a friend.
And I miss them.
I miss special occasions where we thought nothing of bunching together to play games and take pictures. Even when half of us were strangers (I knew 1 person in this photo at the beginning of the day)
I miss the madness that is graduation.
I miss that last chance to see the kids (I won't post any of their photos, though I have 3 years of graduation pics with my students)
I miss my family. I really want to hug my mom.
I want to go play with makeup with Gabby.
I definitely miss my family...
I'm glad we started the selfie habit.
It helps and makes it harder at the same time.
I miss being able to be close to people. I am very grateful I have Ethan and Travis. I know that some people live alone or have jobs that force them to be socially distant from their families while living in the same home. I at least have a couple of people I can hug. But I want to hug a whole bunch of other people. This isn't new for me, I love hugging people. I find it to be therapeutic. And when all of the COVID-19 stuff is under control and we can go out and hug people again, I am going to need a whole lot of therapy.